This picture has nothing to do with the topic of the blog, and in case you haven’t noticed, my blog’s been “dark” for about six weeks or more. It’s not for lack of material or because I’ve had writer’s block. I’ve been busy “othering.”
The last five years of my life have been pretty much spent in ego-centric introspection. I’m not ashamed of this. I needed to come back to myself, get re-acquainted, with myself, and to discover who I’d become and who I wanted to be. In some ways, I’d been successful. In other ways, I’m as clueless as ever.
“Othering” took me out of myself, and I’m actually quite thankful. I was getting pretty bored with it all. I’m not that fascinating. Focusing on family members in need, attending to the details of someone else’s safety, and trying to just listen has been a very important diversion. I’ve discovered some important things, and…go figure…these discoveries are all about ME. Hoo-boy.
I’m not a great caregiver. I’m oblivious to the obvious. I get frustrated too easily when I’m out of my comfort sone. As much as I like people, I need quiet time.
All good to remember. Hope I do.